Void

A gush of tears followed by an empty mind navigates my tired body towards the laptop. Seating myself in the comfortable chair, my fingers seek out the keyboard and stary typing. Bleary eyes watch as letter crawl over the white patch of writing space like ants marching home. The laptop's speakers blare out some love forsaken song which makes my heart wrench in pain...the song loops endlessly.

My nimble fingers make intricate movements on the keyboard making words out of keys printed with alphabets. Words keep collecting togather, forming sentences, paragraphs...perhaps even a story. Curiously, the mind sees them but fails to register its meaning. As I keep typing, the pain in my heart goes numb, my mind stops analyzing, all I want is to run away. All I want is some peace.

All I hear is you saying "bye"...

Na hai yeh paana, na khona hi hai...

tera na hona jane, kyon hona hi hai....

Tears

The car moves smoothly over the gravelled road. Tired of the air conditioned comfort, I roll down the windows to let the breeze touch my face.

As I keep driving, I suddenly realize the wetness on my cheeks and I ask myself what made these rascal tears to tease my senses. I thought this was funny. I should not be having tears in my eyes. Nothing has happened. There is no sad news that I have learnt, there has been no accidents, mishaps, quarrels, break ups...nothing that warrants such a generous stream of salt laced water to flow down my eyes. Neither is my contact lenses playing up.

I did not get any answer. Just saw your handsome smile, remembered your deep gaze...for a moment, I imagined you laying your hand on my head...like you did when I was upset. It was comforting, but it brought a fresh flow of those wretched tears...

Although you are not with me, I hear your voice calling out to me....

I don't know what made me cry, but I kept driving, trying to blow dry my eyes and soothe my aching heart...

It still hurts.

Don't know why....

Tum Se Hi....

Na hai yeh pana
Na Khona hi hai
Tera Na hona jane
Kyun hona hi hai

Tum se hi din hota hai
Surmaiye shaam aati
Tumse hi tumse hi
Har ghadi saans aati hai
Zindagi kehlati hai
Tumse hi tumse hi

Na hai yeh pana
Na Khona hi hai
Tera Na hona jane
Kyun hona hi hai

Aankhon mein ankhein teri
Bahoon mein baahein teri
Mera na mujhe mein kuch raha ...hua kya
Baaton mein baatein teri
Raatein saugatein teri
Kyun tera sab yeh ho gaya...hua kya
Mein kahin bhi jata hoon
Tumse hi mil jata hoon
Tumse hi tumse hi
Shor mein khamoshi hai
Thodi se Behoshi hai
Tum se hi tum se hi

Aadha sa wada kabhi
Aadhe se jyada kabhi
Jee chahe karlu is tarha wafa ka
Chode na chootey kabhi
Tode na tute kabhi
Jo dhaga tumse jud gaya wafa ka
Mein Tera sarmaya hoon
Jo bhi mein ban paya hoon
Tumse hi tumse hi
Raste mil jate hai
Manzile mil jati hai
Tumse hi tumse hi

Na hai yeh pana
Na Khona bhi hai
Tera Na hona jane
Kyun hona bhi hai

This is a song from the movie 'Jab We Met'....it's beautiful and does manage to bring that stray tear to the corner of my eyes...love so deep can only be understood by those who have loved ...and lost! And if you love someone deep enough, the lyrics of this song will also make your finger rise automatically to flick that wild, unheeding, stray tear away!

Love hurts and that's the beauty of this emotion. It curves your lips into a smile while your eyes grow a deep red with tears gushing like a stream ....and only you know the bittersweet pain.

Love...